Thursday, August 24, 2006
my legs are aching....
i feel a little pressure when bok told us that we have to depend our title for being a champion last year...
aaawww man! the beat was too fast and i hope i can catch up with it... cause if i dont... then it will be too late for me... i may not gonna pick as a dancer (whoa! did i say dancer?!)
anyway... hope i our effort and hardship will have a good result...
oh! we will perform that dance number on single's night... yahoo!!!
wish us luck!
Monday, August 21, 2006
this is the day...
a unimaginary situation... and unpredictable things happened...
last week ive got a chance to talked to my friend... he informed that my x break up with his girlfriend...
honestly speaking.. there's part of me.. saying "buti nga sayo".. the more i felt now was... pity...
i pity my x... yeah.. ive been talking about karma lately... and i think what happened to him was too much...
then last night... ive got a chance to talk to him...
my first approached was "i dont know anything approach" but when he said that his bestfriend told him that we have a conversation... then all i do was to spill it out...
he' doin' fine (thats what he said) but funny... i feel a burden.. i can feel his pain... and my pain too...
but i have to tell him something... i gave him advices... lots of advice.
then morning came... i got a chance to talked to his girl... but the girl didnt opened up anything she just said she want to say hello to me... and other stuff like she's very busy...
oh men! how can i avoid them? no matter what i do to avoid them... it seems that... they are... they can still find a away to get near me...
how ironic isnt it? so... i decided not to runaway or hide from them... i have to face them.. cause sooner or later... we will face each other... maybe not now... but perhaps in the near future.
things will gonna be work out just fine... i know it will
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
a letter for GOD...
i know i've been talking about "karma" this past few days... i know in some way... he deserved that... and he was paying the consequences for the wrong thing he has done...
but GOD, please help him... help him to heal his heart... heal his memory... heal him LORD JESUS CHRIST... as you healed me.
i know he's not that good person but what happen to him was totally... i think its too much...
help him to learn his lesson... i know everything happen for a reason...
and for this girl LORD GOD.... i dont know what or who she really is.... i dont know why she've done those things... but please o GOD, help her too... to analyze and let her know what she've done were wrong....
help both of them to heal... to forgive...
i leave the rest to your hand GOD...
In JESUS NAME... AMEN...
Monday, August 14, 2006
TROPANG OP
the topic for discussion was soo cool...
its about friendship....
and here are the words...
Thursday, August 10, 2006
the power of three...
for me... the so-called power of three is "dont do to others what you dont want to do unto you"
if you do things bad to other people.... this will bounce back to you three times worst than you've done...
same goes if it is good.....
so... thats the reason why..... i stop cursing people... i stop taking a revenge....
yes i admit i am in pain... that the reason why i am writing this nga e....
yes i admit i am mad.... to both of them...
when i was in retreat.... our last talk.... our last speaker rather.... red a bible verse in psalm stating like this...
it is alright to get angry but dont sin....
so as long as i dont sin.... or i dont let my anger eat me up.... it was alright pa pala....
im not gonna kill them naman e....
all i want is for them to realize how bad they did to me... and... i hope they can be happy...
i hope.... they can really eb together.... forever....
i'll let my pain, my anger subside... but now.... i dont want to talk to them... to have a information about them or anything i would hear about those two....
although.... medyo ok na ako... at ndi na ako gaanong nasasaktan... pero i want to FULLY RECOVER for that incident.... i want a fully recover.... in mind... in heart.... in myself... i want my confindence back.... my self-esteem...trust to other people and to myself....
i want that back.... the damage has been done.... and there's no room for to cry for it and to undo things.... all i can do is....
to heal myself....
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
a vision of you...
i take a rest... then... i hold my mongol pencil and once again grab my scratch paper.... i decided to sketch again....
i started in his eyes.... then... his brow.... his lips... shape of his face.... when suddenly i stopped....
i stare to his eyes.... i think i've seen these eyes before... (i thought)
then... i dropped my pencil....
after a few years.... i decided to draw a portrait again... but the portrait i draw this time.... was the portrait of him.....
yes.... him... my lost love.... now... where's the portrait? i trew it in trash bin... it doesnt mean that im weak....
i just want to move on...
Monday, August 07, 2006
a door and a window
truly i tell you... if someone closes door for you... definitely... someone will open a window for you kasi chismosa siya at inaalam niya kung ano ang nangyar sayo ... waheheheh just kidding...
nope really, if you feel like you are left standing outside the door... because someonel closed its door for you.... someone will open a window for you...
oh! hiw redundant i am.... oh well... so what will you do?
will you stay outside?
or
will you grab that opportunity.. you will jump in?
that may be a tough question isnt it? cause you will never know what IS INSIDE. or what's gonna happen to you after you jump in?
i tell you... you will never know... unless you try... and if ever... you find yourself outside again....
think about the reasons why.... perhaps there is something you need to understand and you need to find out....
sometimes, you have to be sensitive in other people's need...
and... everything happens for a reason.
time is chance as a friend of mine told me.... so better grab the chance or the opportunity you have...
pain is part of being human.... part of being alive.... dont cry cause it is over.... smile... cause it happened.
fist day high
so many changes... so many new faces here... so many people... >_<
same old place... same old position...
aww... how i miss my freedom... >_<
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
on my free time
besides, i enjoy studying flash...