my legs are aching....

its been two nights now since i started to practice for our dance practice... >_< and now... my legs are aching...

i feel a little pressure when bok told us that we have to depend our title for being a champion last year...

aaawww man! the beat was too fast and i hope i can catch up with it... cause if i dont... then it will be too late for me... i may not gonna pick as a dancer (whoa! did i say dancer?!)

anyway... hope i our effort and hardship will have a good result...

oh! we will perform that dance number on single's night... yahoo!!!

wish us luck!

this is the day...

there are lot of things happen to me this last few days... a shocking revelation / issue...

a unimaginary situation... and unpredictable things happened...

last week ive got a chance to talked to my friend... he informed that my x break up with his girlfriend...

honestly speaking.. there's part of me.. saying "buti nga sayo".. the more i felt now was... pity...

i pity my x... yeah.. ive been talking about karma lately... and i think what happened to him was too much...

then last night... ive got a chance to talk to him...

my first approached was "i dont know anything approach" but when he said that his bestfriend told him that we have a conversation... then all i do was to spill it out...

he' doin' fine (thats what he said) but funny... i feel a burden.. i can feel his pain... and my pain too...

but i have to tell him something... i gave him advices... lots of advice.

then morning came... i got a chance to talked to his girl... but the girl didnt opened up anything she just said she want to say hello to me... and other stuff like she's very busy...

oh men! how can i avoid them? no matter what i do to avoid them... it seems that... they are... they can still find a away to get near me...

how ironic isnt it? so... i decided not to runaway or hide from them... i have to face them.. cause sooner or later... we will face each other... maybe not now... but perhaps in the near future.

things will gonna be work out just fine... i know it will

a letter for GOD...

dear GOD,

i know i've been talking about "karma" this past few days... i know in some way... he deserved that... and he was paying the consequences for the wrong thing he has done...


but GOD, please help him... help him to heal his heart... heal his memory... heal him LORD JESUS CHRIST... as you healed me.


i know he's not that good person but what happen to him was totally... i think its too much...


help him to learn his lesson... i know everything happen for a reason...

and for this girl LORD GOD.... i dont know what or who she really is.... i dont know why she've done those things... but please o GOD, help her too... to analyze and let her know what she've done were wrong....

help both of them to heal... to forgive...

i leave the rest to your hand GOD...

In JESUS NAME... AMEN...

TROPANG OP

last night... we had a household at our unit head's place...

the topic for discussion was soo cool...

its about friendship....

and here are the words...




SIRACH 6:5-17

² A kind mouth multiplies friends, and gracious lips prompt friendly greetings.

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Let your acquaintances be many, but one in a thousand your confidant.

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When you gain a friend, first test him, and be not too ready to trust him

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For one sort of friend is a friend when it suits him, but he will not be with you in time of distress.

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Another is a friend who becomes an enemy, and tells of the quarrel to your shame.

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Another is a friend, a boon companion, who will not be with you when sorrow comes.

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When things go well, he is your other self, and lords it over your servants;

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But if you are brought low, he turns against you and avoids meeting you.

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Keep away from your enemies; be on your guard with your friends.

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A faithful friend is a sturdy shelter; he who finds one finds a treasure.

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A faithful friend is beyond price, no sum can balance his worth.

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A faithful friend is a life-saving remedy, such as he who fears God finds;

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For he who fears God behaves accordingly, and his friend will be like himself.

well... well.. well.... i can say that i already met those kind of people... for all those years i've met different kind of person....


some they befriend you because they need something from you....

but i can say.... i really do find a true friends.... not just i have my parents and my brother and sister... i also have "tropang op" to support me all the way... although we dont see that much... talk that much, text that much... all of us know... deep within our heart that we are friends...

we do give advices to those who need it... but the person who have that problem was still the last one to decide...

"do what makes you happy" our tropa's motto...

we stay beside them.... not behind... not in front of them... but beside them...

and... i will treasure... and i appreciate all those memories and friendship we had....

i am so blessed to have a friends like them... i really am blessed

the power of three...

"the power of three will set us free" - the charmed one



for me... the so-called power of three is "dont do to others what you dont want to do unto you"

if you do things bad to other people.... this will bounce back to you three times worst than you've done...

same goes if it is good.....


so... thats the reason why..... i stop cursing people... i stop taking a revenge....


yes i admit i am in pain... that the reason why i am writing this nga e....


yes i admit i am mad.... to both of them...

when i was in retreat.... our last talk.... our last speaker rather.... red a bible verse in psalm stating like this...


it is alright to get angry but dont sin....


so as long as i dont sin.... or i dont let my anger eat me up.... it was alright pa pala....

im not gonna kill them naman e....


all i want is for them to realize how bad they did to me... and... i hope they can be happy...


i hope.... they can really eb together.... forever....


i'll let my pain, my anger subside... but now.... i dont want to talk to them... to have a information about them or anything i would hear about those two....

although.... medyo ok na ako... at ndi na ako gaanong nasasaktan... pero i want to FULLY RECOVER for that incident.... i want a fully recover.... in mind... in heart.... in myself... i want my confindence back.... my self-esteem...trust to other people and to myself....


i want that back.... the damage has been done.... and there's no room for to cry for it and to undo things.... all i can do is....

to heal myself....

a vision of you...

yes you.... while i was waiting for my computer... i decided to sketch a little... one, two, three sketch was fine.... i've made a three sketch...

i take a rest... then... i hold my mongol pencil and once again grab my scratch paper.... i decided to sketch again....

i started in his eyes.... then... his brow.... his lips... shape of his face.... when suddenly i stopped....

i stare to his eyes.... i think i've seen these eyes before... (i thought)

then... i dropped my pencil....

after a few years.... i decided to draw a portrait again... but the portrait i draw this time.... was the portrait of him.....


yes.... him... my lost love.... now... where's the portrait? i trew it in trash bin... it doesnt mean that im weak....


i just want to move on...

a door and a window

truly i tell you... if someone closes door for you... definitely... someone will open a window for you kasi chismosa siya at inaalam niya kung ano ang nangyar sayo ... waheheheh just kidding...

nope really, if you feel like you are left standing outside the door... because someonel closed its door for you.... someone will open a window for you...

oh! hiw redundant i am.... oh well... so what will you do?

will you stay outside?

or

will you grab that opportunity.. you will jump in?

that may be a tough question isnt it? cause you will never know what IS INSIDE. or what's gonna happen to you after you jump in?

i tell you... you will never know... unless you try... and if ever... you find yourself outside again....

think about the reasons why.... perhaps there is something you need to understand and you need to find out....

sometimes, you have to be sensitive in other people's need...

and... everything happens for a reason.

time is chance as a friend of mine told me.... so better grab the chance or the opportunity you have...

pain is part of being human.... part of being alive.... dont cry cause it is over.... smile... cause it happened.

fist day high

o well... here i am with my "first day" here at the main office...

so many changes... so many new faces here... so many people... >_<


same old place... same old position...


aww... how i miss my freedom... >_<

on my free time

o well.... im spending my free time studying flash... yeah.. flash... im trying to work on sfc website and i want to use flash on it... and... im working with coach owel (my coach in dart) and a new member sign in... our tl in last clp... jun... we hope we can finish this site as soon as possible....


besides, i enjoy studying flash...