whats with it?

"im glad you found him.. and to hear that you move on"

our friend (my ex and i) told this to me last time when we have a little chat... he mistook the title of my blog, pictures and other stuff that i already have a bf...

i told everything... but there is one thing i haevnt told him...

having someone to be by yourside or having a new boyfriend doesnt mean that i already move on...

to tell everyone the truth... i dont want to have a new guy in my life... but that doesnt mean that i cant move on... its just that i need to prepare myself first...

for me.. having a new guy in life after a break up will not end well...

lalabas lang na panakip butas yung guy.. shock absorber... and it wasnt good... using people and playing with their emotions was bad.

if i do that im just like my ex.. dont you think?

so... i want to be fully recovered... and when that time comes... i can give my heart... my whole heart to that guy.

oedipus and electra complex

o well... i dunno why im writing or why i suddenly write a blog about this...

o well.. to go further about this topic.. (panindigan ko na nga) some of us have an oedipus and electra complex....

not really to the extent that you gonna kill you father/mother because you love your mother/father that much...

in modern days, i can say the people have an oedipus/electra complex cause they admire their mother/father so much and somehow they are looking for someone who can fit to their parent's personality...

when i was young.... i also admire my father for his determination and how he handle things... i even want to marry someone like him... but as i go on to this life... i realize that i can never find someone like him cause he is unique and one of a kind... i can never find exactly like him... so i quit...

now i look up not only to my father but also to my mother as a model... as an idol... i want to grow up like my mama and my papa...

so to those who are looking for a partner who like their partner as their mother or father well... goodluck to you...

i wish in near future you wouldn't have a problem with your partner... cause if you want someone to be someone... well, that will be rude... cause your missing the capability of that person, his/her unique personality.

so you better stop it... it isnt nice.... just look up to you parents as a model...

love the person who he/she is not because you see someone to her/him... isnt that sweet? ^_^

i cant find a song... instead ill put the lyrics here... hoping this will help to understand what im trying to say...


LOVE ME FOR WHAT I AM
BY: CARPENTERS


We fell in love

On the first night that we met

Together

We've been happy

I have very few regrets

The ordinary problems

Have not been hard to face

But lately little changes

Have been slowly taking place

You're always finding something

Is wrong in what I do

But you can't rearrange my life

Because it pleases you



(*) You've got lo love me

For what I am

For simply being me

Don't love me

For what you intend

Or hope that I will be

And if you're only using me

To feed your fantasy

You're really not in love

So let me go

I must be free



If what you want

Isn't natural for me

I won't pretend to keep you

What I am I have to be

The picture of perfection

Is only on your mind

For all your expectations

Love can never be designed

We either take each other

For everything we are

Or leave the life

We've made behind

And make another start



Repeat (*)



And if you're only using me

To feed your fantasy

You're really not in love

So let me go

I must be free



You're really not in love

So let me go

I must be free

me... at subic?

my boss asked me after i finished my one month stay here at baguio aritao project... he will assign me at subic...

so i'll stay at subic if im not mistaken... nweiz, this is much better than bohol... i can go home every weekend... and besides... i think i need a new environment...

all i can do now is to wait till he says it to me again..

honey we've done it...

dapat magsusulat ako nung sunday, kaso dala ng puyat... ndi ko nagawa... dapat naman kahapon.. dala ng katamaran kaya ndi ko ginawa...

hhhmm... after weeks of practice and sacrifices, nagbunga din ang aming pinaghirapan.... north sector won first place in band and dance competition while pnpa got the title "champion".

they are good... no... good was not the right word to say... at that night they are the best.. from video to band to dance... no wonder they won....

anyway, i am happy how the competition turned out.... happy and fruitfull...

all i can say is... Honey! we did it! We Won First Place and this is all for you!



For SFC Cavite North Congratulations! OMEDATTO!!!!

i have the ace of heart

i still have the ace of heart so i wont fall dont and cry for the love i've lost...

anyway, no matter how many times i've red a book about relationship, no matter how i see and hear some difficulties in relationship and how they overcome it, no matter how people help me to stand up again, to cheer me up but i wont do it on myself, and lack of will to do it then it will be nothing...

i have to apply all the lesson i've learned through this.... apply and be wise this time.

the king of heart will find me.... he will...

honey... im tired...

o yeah.. im tired... and i dont have enought sleep...

we've been praticing for our dance number for this coming singles night event... yeah its a competition and i feel a little pressured about it...



we will be very busy this week 'cause the event will be this saturday.



it was so fun though and i know after this event bihira na naman kami magkikita kita.. >_<



o men... then there's conflict... last satruday... my mama scolded me... for coming home late... 1am in the morning... because of our practice... i cant reason out to her cause i know im wrong...



nobody is here to blame cause i know that everyone want to perfect the dance... but i want them or i want all of us to be considerate... since the place was so far to our place... and we started so late... i want everyone to be punctual...



we also need to think about our parents who patiently waited for us at home...



so there... all i can say is...



HONEY! IM DEAD TIRED! BUT I AM HAPPY CAUSE IT IS FOR YOU!