I found myself crying so hard last night... not only that... i also find myself comparing myself to a lady... whom i know i am nothing compare to her....
Since the day I found out that my ex lover is dating my friend... yeah... my friend. I told them that's fine with me and I'm alright about it....
But last night? That prove me that I am not alright after all... Its funny how I feel sorry for myself...self pity.
Another funny thing is I gave advice to my friends about their love problem but now here I am having the same problem and can't do anything about it... o well... i know i have a solution to this problem but there are some clouds in my mind and i can't think right and i can't start all over again...
Perhaps they are right, as long as I have a connection to them... (they still my friend and they will always will) I hardly move on... For now, I put a space between us... and when the time comes.... when I know to myself that I already move on... then... I'll come back....
At first, I thought this thing only happens in movie, in novel.... but then i was wrong... it can happen to anyone else and thats the reason why I have a hard time to meet new friends.
I also found myself doubting people, I lose trust to people (some people ok?)
This is not me... I want to become me again... and with the help of my family, friends, myself and GOD... I will become me... and back to track of life....
I may lose a lover... but I will never lose hope...
Since the day I found out that my ex lover is dating my friend... yeah... my friend. I told them that's fine with me and I'm alright about it....
But last night? That prove me that I am not alright after all... Its funny how I feel sorry for myself...self pity.
Another funny thing is I gave advice to my friends about their love problem but now here I am having the same problem and can't do anything about it... o well... i know i have a solution to this problem but there are some clouds in my mind and i can't think right and i can't start all over again...
Perhaps they are right, as long as I have a connection to them... (they still my friend and they will always will) I hardly move on... For now, I put a space between us... and when the time comes.... when I know to myself that I already move on... then... I'll come back....
At first, I thought this thing only happens in movie, in novel.... but then i was wrong... it can happen to anyone else and thats the reason why I have a hard time to meet new friends.
I also found myself doubting people, I lose trust to people (some people ok?)
This is not me... I want to become me again... and with the help of my family, friends, myself and GOD... I will become me... and back to track of life....
I may lose a lover... but I will never lose hope...
2 comments:
you know how to find me, right? ii ne?
yeah..i know.. but i will be fine... shinjite... ^_^
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