aww man...

an officemate told me a few minutes ago that she saw "my bf's" picture... i corrected here, i told her he isnt my bf he's my ex-bf.... and i've shown the picture of his new gf... i thought it was alright for me to see their faces... but when i saw the girl's picture... and her status... "in relationship" in her friendster profile said... suddenly i feel pain....

and now... i m wondering... am i really alright? i've seen their picture.. they are happy.... very happy in each other arms... isnt that what i wanted from the start? their happiness?? but why do i feel pain?? but why do i feel like crying? im still affected.... and... i still.... love.... him....

and... this song.. keep on playing in my mind...




i can relate to this song...

" ikitai yo kimi no tokoro e imasugu kakedashite ikitai yo
makkura de nani mo mienai kowakutemo daijoubo
kazoekirenai hoshizora ga ima mo zutto koko ni aru n' dayo
nakaranai yo mukashi kimi to mita kirei na sora datta kara"

" i want to go to where you are
i want to see right now and go to you
in darkness, i wont be able to see
and though is scary, i'll be fine
the countless stars are here with me now, as they always have been.
i wont cry, because this was the beautiful sky that
i watched with you so long ago."