last night... i've got a chance to talked to caski...
his words really sooth in my mind.... its like a cape that protected me.... and... its nice to hear it... so nice....
it calms my mind... and it calms my heart.... he even asked me to cry it out.. to cry it out loud... cause... he said... crying is not a sign of weakness... a pain like that wont hurt me but make me stronger...
he doesnt want me to end someone we both know.... he want me to shout my pain.
but although i want to shout it out... although i want to cry it out so hard... i cant find a right place where no one will bother me while im doing it....
i cant thank him enough for those comforting words... perhaps... thats what ive been looking for in the first place... a shoulder i can cry for... a comforting words... someone who will protect me... and i can see it in him.... and to alvin as well...
all this time ive been protecting everybody.. ive been protecting people so dear to me.... i dont have a grudge on that or a regret about that.. cause i really do love to protect them.... and since, that talked... that conversation.... i realized even heroes need to be protected.... even heroes need hero.
and it felt so good.... it felt so good...
i cant thank the two of them enough... ill go out with caski... thats my way of saying thank you... ill try to smile and made my self better for alvin and to others who worry for me...
while i cant recover, will you be there for me?? will you be my shield? will you be my companion while im saying all my pain? i hope you will... i hope you will....
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